Sunday, July 29, 2007

A friend told me recently that I was "so much more interesting in person" than on my blog. It's true--I am a pretty boring blogger. For the most part, I find that people are interested in the angst; the sorrow and sadness or anger that makes us all feel connected somehow.
I can't do it.
I can't vomit emotion in public, and I consider a blog a very public forum. I have suffered a lot in the past years, and I want to focus on the positive, with which I have been richly blessed. The everyday hurts, the tragedies, the anger--I don't really want to make them more real by publishing them on the web. I prefer to just deal quietly with life's disappointments and move on. So I'm boring...I'll take it.
For the record I am grateful for the wonderful folks who come visit me here, and occasionally leave a comment or two. I'll keep reading and stay in touch. I think it's time for me to just take a little break from writing and enjoy my life--boring or not.

12 comments:

Sharon said...

Ellie Bee, though we haven't been acquainted for long, you are very dear. I feel the same way you do about blogging-- what I bring to my blog is (generally) my best self. If people want to read about trauma and drama, there are plenty of other places to go for it. Whether you are blogging or not, I look forward to corresponding with you. And FWIW-- I don't think your blog is boring. xoxo, Sharon

Susanne said...

Are you really sure she's a friend? (Or he? Somehow I think it must be a she.) Of course your blog is boring. That's why it is still on my blogroll and twenty others are not.

Enjoying your life surely is a good thing. Please stay in touch, though.

Anonymous said...

Ellie Bee,
It would be a very skilled blogger/writer to present himself on the blog as "interesting" as he is in real life. Most of our writing is representative of one facet of our lives. The glimpses you share of your abundant life are engaging, well-written, and pithy.

The people who know me in real life are generally surprised and disturbed if they read my blog. I wouldn't even read my blog, LOL! It may not be obvious to people who do not know me in person, but my life is NOT a train wreck. But it IS boring to me, and at times it feels like I am decomposing from the inside out. That feeling has got to go somewhere, and I don't (currently) have a lot of opportunities for dealing with it, so yeah, there's a lot of purging over there.

As I recently read, vanilla is the most popular flavor. So who's to say what's boring?

lu said...

I've been inspired, and impressed, but never bored by reading here. Not once.
For some of us this blog thing is an outlet for pain; often a place to let out all that we hold in. To do that It has to remain anonymous. For others it's serious exercise in the business of writing and meant to entertain. It even becomes a popularity contest.
It's clear and apparent in the things you've blogged about that you've found ways to keep your life in balance and to focus on the positive.
I've learned from this and having a little insight into your outlook has been a blessing for me. Thank you for being what you've been here; a joyful voice. I wish you the best and hope to find you here again before long.

meno said...

Boring? I don't think so.

I like my life to be boring. I hate drama. Enjoy your rest. I hope you'll be back.

Anonymous said...

I hope you come back too, please.

thailandchani said...

I'm with you on this. Really. In fact, I'd planned to blog about something similar.

Why is it only negativity and sympathy-seeking that binds so many?

I don't get it.

Anyway... your blog is not boring. If someone takes the time to read it, there are some rather interesting snippets in it.. sometimes between the lines.. but it's there, revealing in its own way.

:)

By the way, I'm "boring", too. I don't like drama and intensity. I'm old. I like peace.



Peace,

~Chani

DC said...

Boring - are you kidding?? I love reading your writing and have never been bored - not one minute...(although - often kept awake LONG PAST when I should have been in bed...) Much love...write something else....come back to this.

Liv said...

Just tell me who the person was who said such complete and unadulterated crap about you. Say. The. Word. They're done. done. And you know what? Not so hot, that person.

Anonymous said...

I've been thinking about what you wrote since I read it and I can't get it out of my mind. Someone said you had a boring blog because your blog isn't about problems and angst. That's what I like about your blog, you write about the good stuff in your life.

I don't do that, I only usually write about the bad stuff that goes on, not because I don't have good stuff, but because the good stuff is good. I can handle it. It's the bad stuff that I need to get out of my head and I'm too cheap to pay a counsellor:)

I met a young woman at Blogher who had read my blog and she was expecting somebody more staid, more depressed without much of a sense of humor. Oh well, surprised her.

Our blogs, my blog, is only a part of me, of my life. It's not all of me, not by a long shot and it sounds like your's isn't either.

Don't stop writing sweetie. I love to read your blog. It lightens my day.

Quail Hill Knits said...

I never thought your blog was boring and I will be checking back from time to time to see if ou have posted. Good luck in the future.

Andrea Frazer said...

I am a recovering addict of approval addiction also. I am learning that if I do something out of respect for someone, that's one thing. But to please someone else? No. Stay true to your boring blog self if that's what makes you happy. I like it.